I
decided that I need to chance my lifestyle. It happened because the
mirror told me that I'm way over the acceptable when
it comes to weight
matters.
After
getting married I forgot to take care of me. I have now 20 kg more
than I had in feb. 2012. It's about 10 kg per year. Where am I going
to get this way? The change must come and now is the time.
I
wanto to introduce to myself the new me! I am going to be different
and writing this words in this blog is my first step. I want to have
a record of my progress and if I consider to give up in any moment I
want to have a place to look at to see when and why I decided to go
back to my 85 kg.
I
need to understand that these 85 kg are over my ideal weight, but is
my goal. I wanto to go back to the body I had when I got married. I
had a neck, I had some shape to feel confident about, and now I
don't. Sometimes I wonder how can my wife love me when she looks at
me and that makes me feel terrible, because as a man I look at the
outside instead of looking in the inside.
To
change my outside, I am opening myself to change my inside first, to
bring into words what I feel and make a change in what I have to
change.
Yesterday
we went to Vitória to do the montly grocery shopping and in the end
of the night, after 11pm when we finished my wife told me she was
starving, I wasn't but she was. After searching some places we end up
in a burger house where she asked for a regular burger and I, as a
freaking fat bastard, choose the big boy. After eating that I
regretted, even before finishing. I don't need to eat that much... I
was already full but I still having that erroneous concept that if I
paid for something I have to go till the end. WRONG!!
I
had to drive 2 hours until get back home, and all the time I was
thinking about all of this... I need to change because if I don't I
have no idea about where I go this way. I could simply became fatter
and end up getting in the surgery to reduce my stomach, but I don't
want it, because I know that if I don't change who I am inside I'll
never be able to change my outside.
My
jeans have holes in the middle of my legs, some of my shirts wont fit
anymore, I can't see my neck, my watchs are too tight, my weading
ring is too tight, by belly is too big and I don't like what I see in
the mirror.
I
saw some tips of what to do to change my lifestyle and I want to
place some in action right away.. I wont be coming here every day and
tell stories of miracle diets I found or that I'm doing some crazy
reductions in
my eating habits or even that I ran 10 km in one day... If I get to
walk some 1 km with my dog I'll be pleased, If I get to avoid using
oil in my cooking I'll be pleased, It I get to reduce the amount of
rice and other fat food I'll be pleased... If I get to eat in the
right moments I'll be pleased.
Change
must come to my life and It will be one step at a time. This is the
first, in the next chapters I'll be telling my progress. Today I'll
pick a pharmacy and check on my weight this will be the beginning of
the new me.
